I’ve been changing a lot lately. I really feel it.
I changed my diet.
Spend more time away from the computer, more time for real life, even though it’s almost just myself.
I think different.
I see the world differently.
It all started after I ended the relationship I could have had with Fl. I dated C. for a while. It was fun and easy and so care-free which made me realize maybe I don’t need what I’ve always wanted, maybe what I need to do is to change myself, instead of hoping for people to change.
But of course, changing myself isn’t as easy as it sounds. I was thinking the same way as usual and eventually got my heart broken, so predictable, I know. But after today’s deal breaker, I realize there’s just one way to make it real, to wake the darker colder side of me. I need to kill the hope and care less for everything. EVERYTHING.
Petit salaud, petite garce, je n’aime que moi moi moi moi.
Having a good heart is overrated.
Having a heart that moves is fucking unnecessary.
I don’t give a damn!
http://www.vimeo.com/11369525 – If you don’t like it fuck you
http://www.vimeo.com/2350118 – Petit salaud, qui tu préfères? Qui tu veux fais ton choix?
No video online but I think the lyric suits me too: For once, in my life, I will let sorrows hurt me not like it hurted me before.
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